A Phoenix Burning

Life’s a Box of Chocolates

One day at a time.
That’s how I find myself getting through these past couple of weeks…one…day…at…a…time.
It has been an emotionally charged couple of weeks. The kids are finishing up school so crazy schedules, finals, moving up ceremonies, special events, have all been clamoring for attention. The renovation started on Monday, so chaotic is an understatement. Head on over to One Fine Summer to see what has happened the last three days. So much! So exciting!
My sister in law and niece came to town Sunday through today, adding some much needed distraction and fun into the crazy.

And last Tuesday it was discovered that I had a lump in my left breast.

Can you say sideswiped? Blindsided? I felt like all the air was sucked from my world. Life has a way of doing that to you now and then, doesn’t it? Kind of like driving in winter. Everything’s going along all peachy keen, and then you hit a patch of ice and spin out of control before you even know what hit you. Monday, life was good, exciting, looking forward to all the neat stuff ahead of us. Tuesday was terrifying as my doctor said he was sending me for tests and passing me along to a breast surgeon. Wednesday was even more terrifying as my mind worked itself through all the possibilities and obsessed on the whatifs my family could be facing. And then Thursday I got my strength and faith on and wrapped it around me like a warm cloak. Pushed it all to the back of my mind, prayed through my anxious moments, and enjoyed the ensuing chaos of my world.
Yesterday afternoon I went for my ultrasound and diagnostic mammogram. The news was good… it looks like I have fluid filled cysts. Still waiting for word from the doctor with next steps and the bottom line, but at this point I am breathing a little easier than I have in days. I will not feel a sense of relief until I hear the all clear. Even then, I feel vulnerable like never before. Life has a way of reminding you that now is all we have for certain, so we had better enjoy every second of it. πŸ™‚

I saw a quote today…it was painted on a sign in front of a house I passed. It said:

Inhale.
Hope.
Exhale.
Hope.
Repeat.

Apropos, no?

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13 responses

  1. Wow, what a terrifying experience. So good to hear that it is most likely nothing of huge concern. My thoughts are with you for the “all clear.” It is so true that we never know what life is going to throw at us and it is important to enjoy whenever we have the chance.

    June 21, 2012 at 7:42 am

  2. Oh my goodness!!! I’m so glad the lump turned out to be nothing serious! I’m glad you were able to get the tests done so quickly… waiting is the worst!! Crossing my fingers that you get the test results confirmed asap.
    Love that quote!

    June 21, 2012 at 7:44 am

  3. Even though I know I was privy to your stressful week I am so glad to hear the good news! Woo hoo! πŸ™‚ I hope you get more good news on the 2nd and we can all breathe a sigh of relief along with you. Take one day at a time and enjoy (as much as you can) the chaos and excitement of your renovation. New beginnings and happy days are ahead!! HUGS!!!!

    June 21, 2012 at 9:56 am

  4. Thank you all! I am holding out for the all clear, then I can really celebrate. And Tracy, having you there has been a great comfort to me my friend. πŸ™‚

    June 21, 2012 at 9:22 pm

  5. So glad you have come through this traumatic week to find good news. All the best as you wait for confirmation.

    June 22, 2012 at 5:06 am

  6. zandic

    I don’t know how to get this across to my children as we prep them for their lives. I want to tell them that life is a game. One you only get to play once. So you cant fall into traps that will ruin your life because those hours, days, years cannot be reclaimed. I want to tell them that we save for the future but do so much in the now so we don’t regret some missed opportunities. We also live as drama free as possible because life will add in its own drama and it will be too much to handle if you live in a whirlwind all the time. We bank our emotional cash so that we can have it to draw from in serious times of need. It is one thing that we have learned and it is how we live so that we can keep moving after huge storms like the ones in KD’s life lately.

    June 24, 2012 at 7:53 am

    • No, Honey….these aren’t huge storms….just a little bit of turbulence. πŸ˜‰ XO

      June 25, 2012 at 7:14 pm

  7. Zan, you can never tell ’em. You have to show ’em. And that’s just what you and KD do. That’s why I love dropping by here to visit. That’s why your kids are going to be great grown-up people. Promise.

    June 24, 2012 at 10:51 pm

  8. Praying for you. That sign is so appropriate.

    June 26, 2012 at 11:36 am

    • Thank you Ted. πŸ™‚ I see a specialist on July 2nd. In the meantime I inhale, hope, exhale, hope, and repeat. πŸ˜‰

      June 26, 2012 at 8:22 pm

      • Knew you were scheduled for a follow-up with a specialis on the 2nd. I hope it went well.

        July 11, 2012 at 12:23 pm

        • Ted, thank you so much for your concern. I SO appreciate it. Yes, all went well, thank God! Benign cysts and I will be watched very closely from now on since I am now considered at a higher risk, but I am very very grateful. Nothing like a health scare to put everything in perspective! I am sorry I didn’t follow up sooner. Time got away from me with everything going on here. I had intended a follow up…I *knew* I felt like I was forgetting something important!

          July 11, 2012 at 5:25 pm

          • With everything going on, I’m not surprised. So very grateful it’s all working out. πŸ™‚ I understand that ‘higher risk’ thing. Both grandmothers, one grandfather, my mother and both my sisters had cancer. Something I live with but don’t dwell on.

            July 11, 2012 at 5:31 pm

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